Work sucks.

Yeah, you heard me. This blog is long overdue for its first "I hate work" post. A voice in my head says "Well, that's why it's called WORK". Well, I just strangled that voice and can now continue my rant. Tomorrow will be day five at my pain-in-the-ass job at Visionworks, where I am a lab technician. Yup, I make the glasses, all day long. The lab has been understaffed and overloaded with jobs over the past few days and it is stressing me out big time. The two guys in the Sonic fast-food commercials piss me off. Everyone at my work is getting on each other's nerves and you can cut the tension with a knife. It is not a good working environment. And besides all that, working with plastic lenses all day puts a lot of bad particulate matter in the air. It gets in my lungs and on my skin and is very unpleasant. I also deal with this blocking alloy stuff. It's basically liquid metal that can be cooled to become solid and it contains many metals, including LEAD. We are living in the 21st century and people are still playing around lead. I probably have cancer from dealing with it. Well, I guess it's time to go to sleep so I can do it all over again tomorrow.

Can the Matrix be funny? I do believe so!

Just when you thought the worldwide phenomenon was over...

There is a new evil within the Matrix.

Ahh, the simple pleasures in life! Doesn't take much to entertain the DooDoo.

It's time to go back to school. I couldn't get into any of the "real" classes I wanted, so it appears the only classes I will be taking this semester are saxophone lessons, Wind Orchestra, and saxophone orchestra. Gotta love those easy A's!

Umm...

...nothing much to say right now. School is back in session - no new developments yet. Feeling kinda down ever since I came back to Tally. Isolation sinking in...bored and alone and unhappy again. I want so much out of life, yet I seem to be achieving none of my goals and desires. A new year usually signifies a fresh start, but so far it feels like the same old shitty 2004 to me. Changes are needed in my existance if I am to avoid ending up completely crazy.

My heart hurts!

What the hell is my problem?! I rarely find a girl that I have a genuine interest in AND who is also very attractive. When I do encounter one of these rare gems I can't get any of them to be interested in me. These are the times when I hate being male. Even today, in the year 2005, with women being more equal to men than ever before, the man is still required to "court" the woman like 99% of the time. I have never had a woman ask me out before. And I suck at asking anybody out because, like I said before, I have a genuine attraction to very few women out there. Are my standards too high? Am I being too choosy? I just see no interest in dating some chick that is pretty if she can't hold a decent, intelligent conversation. I am not one of those guys who can just "fuck 'em and leave 'em". The DooDoo feels like doodoo right now.

I guess I should explain where this rant came from. Tonight I saw M getting out of some other guys car outside of the school of music. It might seem innocent to you all but this guy, a guy who is a friend of mine, has also been calling M ever since he and I met her and went out to the bars together. I hate it when you like someone and one of your friends also likes the same someone. This happens alot in my world because of the whole music thing. We music majors tend to hang around each other because as artists, we don't tend to relate too well to everyone else outside of our little sphere. People within a music school tend to just rotate partners constantly within the school.

Of course, I am not giving up completely on M. I am gonna chill out about this whole thing and let things develop naturally. Maybe she doesn't like my friend. Maybe she doesn't like either one of us. I guess until I get the nerve to flat out ask her what the deal is I am not going to stress out over this. No girl is worth this much stress! (I'll probably regret that last sentence later.)

Hello 2005!

Happy New Year!!!

To all I wish a safe and happy new year. May 2005 bring good fortune, prosperity, and peace to all on this earth. Please send positive thoughts and prayers to those affected by last Sunday's tsunami disaster. This year went out with a bang and I hope that this new year has a quiet beginning.